Bittersweetness......

As I begin the day, I am a bit shell-shocked from last night. Don't remember the dreams so much, but tired. Like I ran a marathon and didn't finish. I have to do so much today, and I am still very worried about the book. And Mark......oh yes.....Mark.

He told me last night that because he had some meeting, they deemed him work worthy and he may not receive his check anymore - which means ALL the bills, insurance, the store, etc are on me. Thanks Mark. We do have some money in the bank, but it won't last forever. We need to open the store NOW - and yet, I don't think we have the resources money wise to open it now. I mentioned to mark yesterday that purchasing a garage door and moving everything in there with an air conditioner/space heater for the wetaher we have may be the cheapest and best bet. With no obligations to another lease. He got mad saying we bought all this furiniture and stuff......well that can wait ....we WILL have a store...just not the one we wanted. Although I am going to call that Ryan guy again....and push him one more time.

I also need to speak to the landlord, who is also a man named Ryan about the fans on the roof, the broken tiles, and the house in general.

Also on a bittersweet note, my dear daughter Hannah - whom I barely know.....has now moved to Lawrence, Kansas to get her masters degree in carbonate sedimentology - AND a free ride to boot. How cool is that...although I am certain Glen is hearyu broken to have basically lost his little girl....Matthew is also going back to CU in Boulder, so Glen will be back with Josh (who lives in the basement)----and whoknows how that works out.

I took the dogs out last night and met the Mother Moon, raised my hands to her and thanked her for all the blessings that have been broght to me.....may they continue......